Monday, September 26, 2005
Earlier today I was irritated by the mere fact that I had to go to the class I hate. But I got over that.
And then I was just cranky. And when I came back from class, I heard a song on the radio that I've heard a million times, but it struck me differently. The lyrics are as follows:
"Listen To Your Heart" by Roxette
I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.
I just stopped and listened to the words, and today, somehow, they had particular significance for me. The line "Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile" seems like it sums up how I've felt recently - as though my efforts are in vain, because I'm really not impacting people. I feel that I am trying and trying and trying and then I look around and see nothing changed, and it's distressing. And frustrating. And then I get cranky, ergo the way I am now. However, the part of the song that really got me was the chorus, especially the line "I don't know where you're going, and I don't know why, but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye" - I guess lately I've been so caught up doing things and being everything to everyone and in the process I've lost my direction a bit. Or... a lot. I don't know where I've been heading - but I've been journeying there quite headstrong. And I don't know why I've set off so determinedly to get to the destination I know nothing about. But I do realize that if I don't slow down and take things a bit more according to the will of God and less according to the will of me, I will lose sight of Him. And that's what I need to really pay attention to - the point of life is not pleasing people, getting good grades, packing as much as I can into one day, one hour, one minute - it is doing everything for God, giving Him all I am, and learning to know, love and serve Him better every day. That's what it's all about.
Well, that's today's insight.
Caritas et veritas.
And then I was just cranky. And when I came back from class, I heard a song on the radio that I've heard a million times, but it struck me differently. The lyrics are as follows:
"Listen To Your Heart" by Roxette
I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.
I just stopped and listened to the words, and today, somehow, they had particular significance for me. The line "Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile" seems like it sums up how I've felt recently - as though my efforts are in vain, because I'm really not impacting people. I feel that I am trying and trying and trying and then I look around and see nothing changed, and it's distressing. And frustrating. And then I get cranky, ergo the way I am now. However, the part of the song that really got me was the chorus, especially the line "I don't know where you're going, and I don't know why, but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye" - I guess lately I've been so caught up doing things and being everything to everyone and in the process I've lost my direction a bit. Or... a lot. I don't know where I've been heading - but I've been journeying there quite headstrong. And I don't know why I've set off so determinedly to get to the destination I know nothing about. But I do realize that if I don't slow down and take things a bit more according to the will of God and less according to the will of me, I will lose sight of Him. And that's what I need to really pay attention to - the point of life is not pleasing people, getting good grades, packing as much as I can into one day, one hour, one minute - it is doing everything for God, giving Him all I am, and learning to know, love and serve Him better every day. That's what it's all about.
Well, that's today's insight.
Caritas et veritas.
